Enough.

I am glad that I have just enough.

I don't have to worry about going hungry, or naked, or anything like that.

I am glad that I have just enough to get me by.

I've realized that the problem with our country is greed. Everyone is so greedy and has to have bigger and better things, and the minute they have an extra dollar in their account, they go and buy a $1200 television set, or a 4-wheeler, or new something.

I've never had much in my life, but I have always had just enough. Just enough for exactly what I need, exactly when I've needed it.

Memories

I LoVe this picture. Beyond words do I love this picture. This was from my freshman year of college, and probably the most candid picture that has ever been taken of me.

I was going through pictures with my current roommate and I came across this one, and haven't been able to stop thinking about it. Those were some good times. I have had great times since then, but this was a night to remember. I had milk spit in my face. Coffee cake was spit across the table. Lura and I lauged so hard we peed our pants, though I admit it and Lura won't.

*smile*

Friends

And more specifically today: "my Daves"

These boys have been an absolute blessing in my life. I have never known such wonderful individuals in my life. They are some of the best friends I have ever had in my life. I met them my freshman year and they've been there ever since. Whether through letters (they were on missions for two years), random phone calls when I need them most, or just being my friend, they have been some of the most inspiring Christ-like people I have ever known.

David Payne, is seriously the most amazing person I have ever met. I don't know how to explain it, but his personality is magnetic for how caring and calm he is. I know he has struggles just like everyone else, but he is always willing to help with mine, and I don't know why. My freshman year, he spent an entire night encouraging me when I threw a pity party for myself. I felt so bad, because he had a HUGE math test the next day he should have been studying for, but my pity party was much more important to him.

Also, just last night, I texted him if he could do me a favor. He said sure. I asked him if he would take an institute class with me and even offered an explanation as to why I wanted him to do such a strange favor for me. He didn't need an explanation, and he was more than willing to do it.

I had my explanation ready: I haven't been to institute since my sophmore year, and every time I try to go, I stop going, because I feel like I don't have any friends in that class, I have too many credits, or this that or the other. I feel if I have a friend in a class with me, I will have an easier time going back to institute and have an easier time going back to church.

What a wonderful person he is.

This is David Eldredge, or Tat as I call him. Tati is Romanian for Dad. So if you haven't guessed yet, he was my FHE dad my freshman year, and though he told me on numerous times, "just call me dad" those of you who know my relationship with my father, know I couldn't do that, so Tat became the alternative.

The first week of school this year I had a family emergency. My family has been falling apart for a while, but this was serious. I didn' t know who to call, because I was trying to get church member's help in another state, in a place where I've never attended. I had not yet been to my ward, and I was calling anyone and everyone I could think of. Well, during this phone-calling escapade I had dialed Tat's number, but he didn't answer. So I called more people. After I finally got in touch with the right people, Tat called me back. I told him in a very vague sort of way what I was doing, but everything was fine now. He asked me where I was, and I told him I was at my apartment. He told me he was coming right then.

Dave had never been to my apartment, and five minutes later he called me from the parking lot, because he didn' t know which one was mine. I opened the door, and the minute he put his arms around me I started bawling. I seriously cried. I have never felt so much love before. He told me I needed someone just as much as every single one of my family members needed someone, and I didn't need to be alone. After I was done crying, we just sat and talked, like old times.

This is the true meaning of friendship. He had much better things to do on a Friday night I'm sure, but he spent it with me in my time of need.

Sorry for my extra-long post about boys, but they're more than that, and I hope you see that.

Goals for November

I know this is kind of late, but better late than never.

#1. Finish all written assignments by Thanksgiving

#2. Make my bed every day

#3. Keep my room picked up and clean.

#4. Keep my desk cleared off

#5. Read my scriptures at least once a day

#6. Save enough for tuition for next semester

#7. Keep perspective

#8. Remain Sane

#9. Bowl at least 3 games in the 160s

#10. Smile and laugh daily.

Forgiveness

I know that my first "thankful" post was about my Savior, but I truly am grateful that I know and have Him in my life. Today I watched Glenn Beck, and watched him talk a little about his conversion story, and I realized more than ever how truly grateful I am.

Even more so, I am so incredibly grateful for His forgiveness, and the sacrifice he made for me.

I haven't been so kind to Him lately, and I know that, and I know I need to change.

But how wonderful it is, that I am able to return to His open arms, and His loving contenance, enabling me to utilize His forgiveness in my life.

Thanks to the atonement I am able to be the person I want to be, regardless of the countless stupid things I have done the past year or so.

Education

I am thankful for my opportunity I have been given to earn my education. It has not been an easy road, but I am really grateful for all of it. I have worked my tail off every summer so I can earn enough to go through the school year without any loans.

So far I have been in school for 3 1/2 years debt free. Unfortunately I still have a year and a half left. This last year is going to be the hardest. I had trouble finding a job this summer, and, well long story short, I am now working so I can pay for next semester.



But I am so grateful.

Thankful for You.

For the month of November, I am only going to post things I am grateful for. I think so often in this life we forget to "give thanks" for what we truly hold dear to our hearts. That, and the fact that school gets kind of crazy this last month of the semester, and I won't be able to spend a lot of time blogging (as you can tell from my lack of scaries this last week.) I think it might be a little easier than coming up with scary things. That was tough!

Today, Today I am grateful for:

I am grateful for the knowledge I have of my Savior, and the sacrifices He made the way so I could be here today, learning and growing through Him.